God's Not Done With You

God’s Not Done With You

Romans 8:18 (NIV)

 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.

[This is the seventh devotion in a series of twelve songs that have impacted us during our grief journey]

Standing in your ruins, feels a lot like the end

So used to losing, you're afraid to try again

Right now all you see are ashes

Where there was a flame

The truth is that you're not forgotten

'Cause Grace knows your name

For the last two years my daughter Emma wore the number one on her uniform but  as we walked into the gym for her first game of the year we were surprised to see a new number on her back. After the game she informed us of her secret. She said she asked if she could wear the number twelve to honor her brother when they were ordering new uniforms. She made them promise not to tell us. Twelve was the number her brother wore in soccer and she chose to pay tribute to him as she put his number on her back and had the courage to press on into her future. 

Choosing to move forward is an act of courage. It is hard to imagine a future without your child in your life. The song God’s Not Done by Tauren Wells has been a reminder that my story is not over. The day I lost my son felt as if it was the end. How could I imagine moving forward when the weight of carrying the pain told me that my future was hopeless?

God's not done with you

Even with your broken heart and your wounds and your scars

God's not done with you

Even when you're lost and it's hard and you're falling apart

God's not done with you

God is not done with us. Our child is gone but we still have days to live out. How do we do that? When my daughter chose to put the number twelve on her back she chose to honor him by not giving up but instead choosing to carry a piece of him with her into her future. She was not alone in making that choice. Bryce’s former soccer team also continued to use the number twelve. They chose a player each game to wear his jersey as a way of remembering him. They chose a player that exhibited similar characteristics as my son such as determination or intensity. I think both my daughter and my son’s teammates provided examples of how to move forward. We take the best characteristics of the one we lost and use those characteristics to live out the days God has planned for us because God is not done with us.